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Of all the photos I have been terrified to post, this one takes the cake. This wasn't long after my surgery. What you are seeing is my expanders. I have to wait about a year or more for implants because I will be doing radiation after chemotherapy. My scars are actually a lot thinner and lighter than this. The surgical glue was still on at that time. I just wanted to show with this picture that you can still continue doing normal things after you get cancer. I thought my modeling career was ruined when I lost my breasts. I also did this to prove myself that I still can. I hate these expanders, but I am not going to change because of my cancer and if I do, I hope to only for the better. I think, for me, this is as vulnerable as it gets. I feel heartbroken about the appearance of my breasts and the pain that I experience every day in them, but they are a badge of honor, a symbol of all the suffering that I have handled like a boss. Cancer is a bitch, but so far, I am winning.